Beautiful light

Although I haven't actively been looking for photos in the same way in the last 4 months, the light still has its way of breaking through. Tugging at that part of me which wants to capture it. Perhaps I don't have as much choice in this process as I originally thought...

Camera: Canon EOS 750
Film: Lomo 400 CN

A day in Wells

These photos are getting old now, they were taken not long after my Grandad died and I've been hesitant to share them... because hes not in them, because it was so close to his funeral, because time is flying by so quickly.  These photos are getting old now.

The hardest parts of the grief are the unexpected parts, the anger at the passing of time, the jolt of remembering death when you've been so busy (moving house etc), the guilt of forgetting for just that brief moment. The reluctance to throw away a gift card because it has his name on it, even if he didn't write it. Discovering all the notes he sent me (we had a deal, he wrote me, I text him - he liked his phone, I always loved his handwriting), making sure his photo is the first thing that has pride of place on the bookcase, before remembering, again, that he won't see our new house. Wishing he was here to identify the plants I don't know... I didn't even know I wanted him to do that, but he would have and I would have asked him.

I've struggled to take photos recently, my phojo (photography mojo) has always been connected to my emotions, and that part of me is so deep in grief right now - it doesn't want distractions or to notice the details around us right now - which is so unusual, as my blog name indicates. But that part of me needs space, and time to get used to this new normal, and I'm ok with waiting and giving it all the time it needs, trying to give myself all the time I need. My cameras are always waiting, they are reassuring like that.

Another part of me is diving into knowledge - podcasts mainly but  I've read two books since he died too, I'm about to start another. I've read 3 now, I'll definitely reach 4 books this year, I'll read more. It isn't as rewarding as I hoped, reaching that goal, yet I'm craving the words of others, the sound of other peoples experience and the description of others emotions, secrets and stories. Making that connection seems so much more important than documenting it. I'm hoping that I can combine the two again soon.

This isn't the post I thought I would write, but thank you if you read it all, it felt good to write it. And can we take a moment to appreciate Harry's amazing old dog eyebrows and adorable face? I'm seeing him this weekend and I can't wait to squish him and stroke his soft fur.  

Camera: Canon EOS 750
Film: Lomo CN400
Location: Wells, Norfolk

Checking in...

Hi guys, just a little blog post to say hi and update you on some news!

Its been a busy few weeks for us in Leeds... after putting in an offer for a house in December and waiting FIVE months to exchange and complete we finally got all the keys!! HURRAY! We spent last weekend decorating and this weekend we will be moving, I'm so excited. However as weekends are usually my 'taking care of blog business' time, I haven't written or scheduled any posts and I'm not 100% sure when I'll be able to. The good news is that I have photos to share, just no time or probably wifi for a little bit ha.

In photography related news... and its exciting news at that! I've been featured in the latest issue of Artful Blogging magazine. In print and everything! How amazing does this photo of mine look as a spread, it makes me a bit weak at the knees happy haha. Check out the preview of the magazine here and if you're thinking of buying it, I would highly recommend it! As well as my feature (which obviously is worth a read lol) there are loads of gorgeous articles and photos, I've really enjoyed reading my copy. 

In other exciting film photography news, my blog has been featured on Peta Pixel as part of my blog friend Jim Grey's '49 film photography blogs worth following' post. If you love film photography as much as I do then definitely check out this list - Jim has put together so many great blogs, some I've been reading a while and some new to me that I can't wait to check out too. 

I really love being a part of the film photography community, so its really an honour to be featured and part of such a great collection of websites, I'm still so thrilled about it.

Hopefully it won't be too long until I'm back here with regular content, but for now I'll be on Instagram sharing my Britain in Focus inspired series of photos daily, so head over there if you're missing me and I'll see you back here soon.

Playing tourist...

Although I spent many years living in Norwich, its been nearly ten years now since I lived there full time (time really flies!) so every time we have a spare couple of hours to hang out in Norwich with no real plans, we always enjoy playing tourist and visiting areas we've either never been to, or somewhere that we haven't been for a while. And of course I take photos too!

Although I only took one photo of the pub sign, I particularly enjoyed our visit to the Adam and Eve pub as my sister discovered a few years ago that we are descendants of the smuggling landlady Elizabeth who ran the pub in the mid 1900's - I'm kind of amazed I've never been before to be honest, but it was fun to visit for sure.

Camera: Canon EOS 750
Film; Lomo 400 CN
Location: Norwich, England