When I first developed and scanned these photos, I remember feeling quite disappointed. Which considering that I had no film developing skills at all and that I developed these during a lockdown in a global pandemic - might have been a bit harsh ha. Now its been a couple of years and I’m coming back to them with fresher eyes, Im reminded how much fun I had taking them and just how lovely it is around Scarborough Castle when you’re there.
A funny (funny unexpected, not funny haha) side effect of CFS/ME and learning how to pace and rest is that you are forced to let go of the idea of perfectionism. Done and OK is always better than not done - and most of the time done and ok is more than good enough. Done and perfect has gone out of the window - which for a chronic perfectionist is a tough lesson to learn! Two years ago I didn’t feel confident sharing these because after however many years of blogging, taking film photos, sharing film photos etc, these ‘should’ have been perfectly developed, blemish, bubble and dust free and definitely not grainy as f*ck haha. Today instead I notice the appealing image framing, the details of the walls, the two birds overlooking Scarborough, the gorgeous views and I take a deep breath and imagine the sound and smell of the sea.
Film photography - the never end lesson in accepting what is - rather than what you think should be.
Camera: Canon EOS 750
Film: Silberra 200
Location: Scarborough Castle
