Around 7 weeks ago, my Nanna died. I wrote a personal draft post/letter about it and honestly - I haven’t had the heart/bravery/guts to post it - its too much, its too soon and maybe, I’ll never share it. And thats ok. The truth is that if you had a relationship with my Nanna in our family - it was complicated. She had her reasons and we’re finding out more as time passes as to what they were - but her impact lingers - positively and negatively - some days its more positive, some its more negative. Its been a ride.
During these last weeks, I got some photos developed by Take it Easy Lab (hence my return) and I’d forgotten that I’d taken photos of the flowers that my Nanna sent me last year for my birthday - my first ever flowers in the post. I was delighted. And I wanted to remember them - at all stages of their time with me, not just when they were fresh and pretty looking. The sychronicity of these photos and the relationship I had with my Nanna is not lost on me.
I’d forgotten how sharp and heavy new grief can be. And also that each grieving process is unique to the specific loss. I’m glad I have these photos through - I love flowers and even in this state, the colours were so pretty and the petals so soft!
Camera: Olympus OM-10
Film: Fuji Superia 200