Eep, so here we are - a new year! Happy New Year to you - I hope its the year you dream it will be. 2015 was such an amazing year for us and I'm excited to see what 2016 holds for me and for my Husband too (not bored of saying husband yet).
It took me a lot longer than its taken in previous years but I'm very excited to say that I finally have a word, woo! For a while after writing my last post I thought it was a different word - become - and although that word terrified me as it was pretty hefty, it took my final session with a counselor (I'm going to write another post on this... don't worry its coming) for me to realise that I'd already become the person I want to be - I just have to keep working on it - the hardest part is over. So rather than being a word for a year - become was unintentionally my word for December 2015 - and what a word it was.
So where does that leave me for 2016? Well - initially back to being a bit flummoxed if I'm honest - become seemed like the perfect word to work with - but it really wasn't relevant anymore. And as I said to my counselor - I feel like the next 12 months are going to be so important, although I couldn't tell you why or whats going to happen, I just feel it.
So I started with words like - genuine, real, honest - and once again bounced around some words on Theasaurus.com where I saw my word a few times before I properly looked at it and thought 'huh that's it.' In fact, I was pretty stubborn about it for a while, searching for other words even when I was nearly certain but every word I looked at somehow seemed to come back to the same place... So, with the universe trying to tell me something and me finally listening - here is my word for 2016.
earnest
1. serious in intention, purpose, or effort; sincerely zealous.
2. showing depth and sincerity of feeling
As well as loving the definition - I also read this amazing quote not too long after deciding earnest was my word.
"Earnest implies having a purpose and being steady and eager in pursuing it."
It seems silly to have a quote that seem to focus on a purpose when I don't really know what the purpose is, however what I do know now, more so than this time last year, is that I am on the right path. I haven't gone far along it yet, so I really don't know where its leading, but the end of last year was such a huge shift for me in terms of 'where I am and where I want to be' that I know now that if I do start to take myself and the things that I can do seriously, with intent and more importantly, feeling... then I don't think much will be able to stop me. I just need to do the work and be patient and I think this year that's what I'm going to be doing.
Isn't that exciting?! I have no idea whats going to happen this year - especially compared to how eventful 2015 was - but I don't think I've ever felt so excited to see how a year turns out.
How about you? How are you feeling about this coming year? Do you have a word to help you through? Let me know in the comments!