For the past few years, Susannah Conway (who I’m sure that you know that I love by now) has been choosing a word to define her year by and try as I might I haven’t been able to choose one.But this year I have and I’m very excited about it!
I'm not really sure why this word popped into my head, but it felt right and the more that I thought about it – the more that I liked it.
The definition is:
con•sid•er•ate [kuh n-sid-er-it] adj. 1. showing kindly awareness or regard for another’s feelings, circumstances, etc 2. carefully considered; deliberate. 3. marked by consideration or reflection; deliberate; prudent.
I feel that normally I am a considerate person – of other people feelings especially – but I think this year I want to be considerate of my feelings, my future and where I want to be in 5 – 10 years time. I want to be considerate when I’m taking my photos, considerate when I’m writing my blog posts and considerate especially of myself, through eating healthily, exercising, going for long walks, making a nice cup of tea, that kind of thing…
I’ve spent the past 3 years settling into a new life in Leeds, finalising the end of University, moving to new houses and a lot of that time worrying about other people but never truly deciding on where it is that I want to end up in my life. In fact, I’ve almost avoided thinking about it – partly because of disappointment in my career (or lack of, haha) and partly because, even though I’m 26 – I’ve never felt grown up enough to truly make those kind of decisions… isn’t that bizarre. (I don't think anyone ever feels properly grown up btw, but that is a whole different post)
Of course, this doesn’t mean that I want to make all sorts of decisions right here and now or even in this year – I truly believe that things will happen in their own time whether I like it or now – but in choosing this word – I’m hoping that it opens me up to different possibilities and opportunities, as I’m no longer scared of things working out differently from how I thought that they might have done before…
p.s. Susannah has put together an amazing workbook for 2012, which I’m currently working through now and it’s really helping me feel grounded for the year ahead, I truly recommend it.
p.p.s. I hope that made sense lol